Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Sunday, November 6, 2011
really long time with no blog
months went by with her watching our grandson jon and not working. The ultimatums got stronger and the fighting began in September when I kept trying to leave her, but not totally take all the funding from her at the same time.
this took a turn on a Friday when she accused me of being afraid, and picked Rachel to say i was afraid of. she began nearly foaming at the mouth and i lost it, but kept my head. be angry and sin not! she ran off in the other room grabbing jon along the way, dragging his tiny body by the shoulder.
the mele at the bedroom door was her insanity in all it's shining glory, throwing herself against the wall and threatening to call the police and tell them i did it. Lots of running around and claiming she'd call my command on me led to her trying to get her phone and call the police. she then threatened to go to barry's to have him call the police.
It was a few hours until i had a tiny bag packed of overnight stuff and was on my way to jerry's where i stayed for a week, then to springfield with adam for a week and back to my brother's for a week or two.
jerry called me at my brother's saying he had a house for me and i've been here ever since.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
long time no blog
wow! has it been a while since i've blogged or what? first i have been around the block and back maritally, have my retirement request approved and much much more. my boss still wants to kill me and my best friend is probably the best on the planet at what he does and detests the profession entirely.
on the upswing with self help. winter 10 was not very good. didn't get to see my son, didn't get to get my wife anything big, didn't get to get away to myself.
i think winter is finally over. it's around 50 deg out there and hanging in there. i think i have gone through several phones since i've last blogged. cigars were all the rage with me until they raged out of control. had to ditch them altogether. bear recommended snus. it's dynamite! like gum or candy with trace amounts of nic for the buz. amazing. want some more kcups and windows 7. miss my son a heap. am excited about some other job than this. those i work with, save a few, are knuckleheads trying to inflate themselves and their job to the size they wish it was! (not to mention their ego's) i am struggling there. out of my element and sphere of influence with my hands tied and blindfolded. go figure i'm struggling!
for like two years of this job my goals and expectations weren't aligned with the realities of the demands of the job at hand. got a new addition to our team and she's amazing, to say the least. kick in the pants and pat on the back all in one fell swoop. i think i need some me time, whada you think?
huge tsunami over in japan. huge! trifecta whammy with earthquake, 9.0 on the rs, then tsunami that destroyed most of the things that the quake didn't, including a nuclear power plant that's about to go into meltdown shortly so there's radiation everywhere. sheesh. biblical proportions over there. glad i don't live along a faultline (jk) newmadrid is due for another bigun' and edgar casey says he dreampt of walking "the beaches of Kansas" momma said she couldn't find the US in the bible.
anyway...i'm just sayin..